Something Is Happening
Egoic Mind: Something is happening. Bowels are stirring … energy surges in my biceps. There are tears in my eyes. Feels like a storm on the emotional horizon!
Gnani: Dance in the rain and body surf in the wave. It is good to be alive.
Egoic Mind: It doesn’t feel so. It feels small, separate, and vulnerable. I hate this when it takes me over like I have no control. I have no control! I hate this, even after all I know, all I have experienced. The motions of this physical body still sweep me off my feet. What is the teaching?
Gnani: Look inside. What do you really feel in this moment … Not what you fear but what you feel.
Egoic Mind: Strangely … I feel proud. There is a sense of confidence, like things are changing in a direction that I favor. It feels good. I am trusting more … Fearing less. I didn’t notice that before in the midst of the pain. It’s all good. Or is that GOD?
Gnani: Is that all? What about in the space of stillness?
Egoic Mind: Hmmm … Acceptance. There is a deep sense of acceptance of this moment … just as it is. Not wishing anything to be different. Richard is walking. Martha’s asleep. Patricia is having tea with a friend. Dan is at his Dad’s. Dogs are at my side. It is all as it is, with not even a hint of desire for it to be otherwise.
Gnani: And the body? What does the storm and seas look like now?
Egoic Mind: Oh my, I didn’t notice, it shifted. There are now, calm waters and peaceful night skies. It’s all good … God. I got it right now. It’s all God. It IS all God.