{"id":1395,"date":"2010-01-10T17:02:25","date_gmt":"2010-01-11T00:02:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.coolkarma.com\/dharma\/?p=1395"},"modified":"2010-01-10T17:02:42","modified_gmt":"2010-01-11T00:02:42","slug":"i-am-the-cause-of-my-suffering","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/?p=1395","title":{"rendered":"I AM the Cause of My Suffering"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.coolkarma.com\/dharma\/wp-content\/uploads\/watergarden-with-crane-and-frame.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-1396\" title=\"watergarden with crane and frame\" src=\"http:\/\/www.coolkarma.com\/dharma\/wp-content\/uploads\/watergarden-with-crane-and-frame.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"710\" height=\"542\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/watergarden-with-crane-and-frame.jpg 710w, https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/watergarden-with-crane-and-frame-300x229.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 710px) 100vw, 710px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">I am the cause of my suffering<\/span><\/p>\n<p>It feels different somehow now.<br \/>\nThere is no blame inside of that space much less anything that needs to be done.<br \/>\nFor now it\u2019s just seeing things as they are.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">I am the Cause of my suffering<\/span><\/p>\n<p>The cause of my situation or circumstances may be multifaceted &#8230;<br \/>\nAnd indeed there ARE a myriad of interwoven connected events that make up this moment.<br \/>\nBut!  If suffering is present there is but One cause.<br \/>\nNo external or extraordinary circumstance is the root of my pain, sorrow or fear.<br \/>\nAll of these are mine alone.<br \/>\nThey belong to the I AM that sits here in judgment and defense.<\/p>\n<p>I AM brings with it longings, cravings and desires.<br \/>\nIt defines a target and continues to see itself fall short of its ideals.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">I am the cause of my Suffering<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Without this me-thought there is simple Beingness.<br \/>\nThe water babbling in the garden.<br \/>\nThe birds chirping in the honeysuckle.<br \/>\nThe bi-planes flying toward the foothills for a scenic ride on a sunny day.<br \/>\nAll of this and this body too with all of its sensations and conditioned responses.<br \/>\nAll of it simple and easy &#8230; Without the I AM lording over the outcome.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">I am the cause of My suffering<\/span><\/p>\n<p>As I feel a wave rise in me, I am reminded gently as the soft breeze through this garden that blows past my ear &#8230;<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">i AM the cause of my suffering<\/span><\/p>\n<p>And with that Knowing there is a sense of deep peace.<br \/>\nThe energy may continue to move or retreat to the abyss from where it came.<br \/>\nBut there is no I AM here on this bench to cling or cringe against its flow.<\/p>\n<p>Without the I AM there is still movement and sensations that rise and fall away.<br \/>\nBut there is no victim nor need for heroine to sully or save the day.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">I AM the cause of my suffering<\/span><\/p>\n<p>And in Truth the I AM does not exist.<br \/>\nI need not embrace, fix or plot its demise.<br \/>\nFor it appears as thin and translucent as the finest web spun across a footpath.<br \/>\nIt falls away as I approach and disappears into the void as I pass through.<\/p>\n<p>This is EMPTYNESS.<\/p>\n<p>An amazing fullness of life as the Totality and no one here to spin a story.<\/p>\n<p>Nothing has changed.<\/p>\n<p>Nothing has been added.<\/p>\n<p>Only the gentle falling away of an illusory &#8211; I AM.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-size: medium;\"><span style=\"font-family: Comic Sans MS;\">I AM &#8230; the cause of suffering<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am the cause of my suffering It feels different somehow now. 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