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Egoic Mind:<\/em> I’m feeling out of sorts.\u00a0 Left out.\u00a0 Tired.\u00a0 But yet, like a surge is coming on.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> That’s a lot going on inside the illusion of YOU isn’t it.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> Yes.\u00a0 I suppose.\u00a0 It’s all in my head … about what’s in my body.\u00a0 But that is where it is in the moment.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> And is there choice for you in this moment?<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> I guess I don’t know.\u00a0 I chose to close my web browser.\u00a0 I chose to consider if there was a way out by engaging in enquiry.\u00a0 But it feels like desperate grasping rather than a choice per se.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> What if instead of choosing to DO something.\u00a0 You CHOSE this moment … just like it is.\u00a0 Take a good look at this moment.\u00a0 Just now.\u00a0 What do you see?<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> The house is unusually quiet.\u00a0 Kids have lots of homework and seem to actually be DOING it.\u00a0 My breath feels constrained like I have to push the muscles in my chest to take air IN.\u00a0 There is spontaneous humming going on in my body.\u00a0 I’ve been humming for hours I think … especially while I type.\u00a0 I think it is masking something.\u00a0 Trying to push through something scary.\u00a0 Like whistling in a grave yard.\u00a0 OK.\u00a0 No more humming.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> No need to try and change anything.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> So I shouldn’t try and stop humming?<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> No need to NOT try and change anything.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> So I can change and stop humming?<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> No need to NOT NOT try and change anything.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> OK.\u00a0 All of this is happening in this moment.\u00a0 No need to consider why or authorship.\u00a0 I get it.\u00a0 Yeah, yeah, I know.\u00a0 No need to GET anything either.\u00a0 Ok.\u00a0 In this moment … there is pain on the right side of my neck.\u00a0 There is some effervescing in my left leg.\u00a0 My body is at an excellent, dare I say ideal temperature.\u00a0 That’s unusual.\u00a0 Mmmmm.\u00a0 The temperature has been hot or cold for days now in this food body.\u00a0 But right now … right now … it feels Goldilocks-just-right.\u00a0 Still there is pain and the effervescing, and thoughts about inadequacies.\u00a0 But temperature wise … it’s wonderful.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Open up the lens and take a wider view.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> Huh?\u00a0 Outside?\u00a0 I hear a car engine … typing on the keyboards from downstairs.\u00a0 I feel stuff<\/em><\/strong> too here in the room.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Don’t get distracted by the energy or sounds surrounding you.\u00a0 Look DEEPER.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> Eyes closed.\u00a0 I can still type.\u00a0 There is a current of energy in my body.\u00a0 The tingling has spread to my left arm.\u00a0 And there is a vertical movement from head to toe on my right side of the body.\u00a0 Wow.\u00a0 The temperature just shifted.\u00a0 The left side of my body is very cold.\u00a0 My elbow is freezing.\u00a0 Oh my!\u00a0 I can touch my left arm with my right hand and it IS glacial.\u00a0 Really really cold.\u00a0 Where did all that warmth go?\u00a0 It hasn’t even been two minutes.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Was it really there at all?<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> It felt so real.\u00a0 I felt warm and at a perfect temperature all over.\u00a0 It felt real.\u00a0 But it’s not possible that the room changed temp.\u00a0 So what happened?\u00a0 Geez, my nose is freezing now too.\u00a0 Wow.\u00a0 This is too strange.\u00a0 Everything has changed on a dime.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Don’t get caught up in the minutia stay with this moment.\u00a0 Look INSIDE but not within your body.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> Huh?\u00a0 Where am I going to look IN<\/em> if it is not IN<\/strong> this body.\u00a0 Ok, let me experience this.\u00a0 Closing my eyes again.\u00a0 Stretching my neck back.\u00a0 Feeling this moment.\u00a0 Feeling the computer keyboard and the fingertips touching it.\u00a0 Words.\u00a0 Air.\u00a0 Sounds.\u00a0 Everything IS<\/em><\/strong> perfect.\u00a0 Right in this moment.\u00a0 There is flow.\u00a0 There are things that are happening just the way they should be.\u00a0 This body feels a bit like a dense cloud that is still supported fully in the sky.\u00a0 The edges of the cloud start to merge with the air and there is no boundary where one starts and the other begins. I can feel the pillow and the pillow feels my head.\u00a0 Love.\u00a0 There is a feeling of radiant love.\u00a0 Not a grasping for in a way that we hope not to lose it.\u00a0 But a loving of everything in this moment.\u00a0 Goosebumps and all.\u00a0 Wow.\u00a0 Nothing has changed but everything is different.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Don’t stop.\u00a0 Go deeper still.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> Yes.\u00a0 More tingles.\u00a0 More shivers.\u00a0 Just so.\u00a0 Just this.\u00a0 I hear the traffic on the freeway miles away.\u00a0 I feel the headlights and taillights.\u00a0 It is all streams and streams of light vibrations.\u00a0 Moving.\u00a0 There is a pattern and a purpose.\u00a0 The stars.\u00a0 Moving across the night sky.\u00a0 But wait?\u00a0 Is it the stars that move or the earth that moves?<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Does it matter if the stars exist only in your mind?<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> What?\u00a0 No.\u00a0 Really?\u00a0 Like the warmth that was there moments ago that turned into bone chilling cold?\u00a0 All an illusion?\u00a0 What about TIME?\u00a0 If SPACE is an illusion, TIME must also be a concept yes?<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Don’t get caught in a worm hole.\u00a0 Go deeper.\u00a0 What do you see, what do you sense?<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> There are currents of movement in the stillness.\u00a0 It doesn’t change the emptiness in any way … but there is movement.\u00a0 Enormous waves\u00a0 … no not waves, ripples … no … what is it?\u00a0 Words are so hard to come right now.\u00a0 Like a brush kissing the canvas.\u00a0 There is movement within the stillness.\u00a0 This is SOOOO much better than searching Google for name-that-illness.<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Use your eyes.\u00a0 Hear from the ears.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> Yeah, yeah.\u00a0 Smell from the nose.\u00a0 There is a subtle stillness here.\u00a0 The house has the normal night time noises.\u00a0 Gurgling of the fish tank, this cannot even be discerned during the day from the symphony of other domestic din.\u00a0 The muffled sound of jet engines at high altitudes from red eye flights can be heard overhead.\u00a0 And that tingling in my leg.\u00a0 It’s still there.\u00a0 The neck pain has changed, diminished really, where only a shadow is left behind as a marker of where it once was.\u00a0 Even the night time snack of bitter Greek yogurt with fresh cranberry-mango chutney seems to contain all of the tart-sweet-textures of a hand spun family heirloom.\u00a0 It’s all here, in one morsel.\u00a0 Nothing is missing.\u00a0 The tiny seeds of the cranberry seem to contain the entire universe.\u00a0 One bite and I am soothed by the sun and the rains that nourished this food.\u00a0 No, this medicine that I imbibe. Everything I need is within my grasp and yet there is no grasping or refusing any thing.\u00a0 How do I know if this is but another literary illusion?<\/p>\n

Gnani:<\/strong> Keep looking.\u00a0 Don’t get lost in the words.\u00a0 Look to the silence in between the syllables.<\/p>\n

Egoic Mind:<\/em> If I wait.\u00a0 I can watch everything come to me.\u00a0 Organically.\u00a0 As it is intended.\u00a0 Heaven can wait.\u00a0 Awareness is awake in this moment.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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