{"id":998,"date":"2009-07-14T13:22:02","date_gmt":"2009-07-14T20:22:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.coolkarma.com\/dharma\/?p=998"},"modified":"2009-07-14T13:22:19","modified_gmt":"2009-07-14T20:22:19","slug":"ultimately-there-is-no-knowing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/?p=998","title":{"rendered":"Ultimately There Is No Knowing"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"mind-narrows\"<\/p>\n

As a mother, of course I assume that I know what’s best for my kids.\u00a0 As a technology expert of more than two decades, I certainly know my way around a mother board.\u00a0 And while I may on occasion go overboard in my appeal, it is only because this place of perception seems so spot-on in the moment.\u00a0 If I hone my selective amnesia, I can easily come up with a long list of evidential proof <\/em>that my instincts are accurate.\u00a0 As for any incongruities?\u00a0 Let’s just say my memory is a bit fuzzy in that regard.<\/p>\n

So I know what I know, and I believe what I know to be the truth at the time I am in the I-know-zone<\/em>.\u00a0 But if by chance or Grace, a flash of insight allows me to briefly leave behind my own belief, there is a deeper knowing <\/em>still, that reveals the fallacy of my conviction.\u00a0 Even my emotions are not what they appear on the surface.\u00a0 The myriad of peptides that create habitual patterned responses do not always tell the real story behind the outrage, sorrow or ecstasy.<\/p>\n

Am I really hungry in this moment, or am I perhaps tired or stressed?\u00a0 Am I angry about the broken window, or the broken promises that litter the path of my past?\u00a0 Are the tears forming in my eyes really about the thoughts I am thinking right now, or the hormones flowing through my fallopian tubes today?\u00a0 Or can I feel energy from another sentient being and mistake that for my own?\u00a0 Ok, that is probably even a little too far fetched for my quasi analytical mind today … and at the very least deserving of a shaggy dog story for another day.<\/p>\n

For any experience, I may make the assumption that there is a cause<\/em> for its creation.\u00a0 But what seems closer to the truth is that there are many causes<\/em> that contribute to the creation of each experience and it is only that my over-developed dissective impulses, which I continue to see and attribute only the influences close at hand.\u00a0 Handy yes, for the meaning making machine of the egoic mind.\u00a0 The illusion of knowing helps to build up the false self to a state of impenetrable density that we not only believe in our own existence but somehow distort perception further to believe our existence could somehow be threatened by the absence of knowing what comes next.<\/p>\n

For now at least, in the space of this stillness that has drifted in under the radar of my conditioned mind, there is a bit of freedom if not joyful bliss arising in the notion that I may not know anything at all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

As a mother, of course I assume that I know what’s best for my kids.\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-998","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dharma"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/998","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=998"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/998\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1004,"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/998\/revisions\/1004"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=998"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=998"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karmabytes.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=998"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}